Why Am I Here?
Looking back at it, I’m glad I experienced
the whole thing. I learned a major lesson, and have never been the same since.
People change you, and you might not realize it now, but people have such a
huge impact on you in the long run. As I was leaving baggage claim, that day
two years ago, I got another text from my mom.
Jeez, if I’m hot, he must be dying in that
thing.
Even though I had been there like five
seconds, I knew it was going to be a long trip for me.
Holy crap.
I had no clue what to think at that point.
Whether it was a punishment to be here, or if I was being rewarded, I had no
clue. I didn’t miss school at all. It was such a relief to be gone from that
disgusting building.
“KNOCK KNOCK! Can I come in? Here I come.
Hey, kiddo! It’s been forever! Gimme a hug!”
“Mark! What’s new?”
I couldn't have cared less.
“ Oh, nothing really. I’m more interested
in you.”
Yeah, right!
He continued. “How are you handling everything?”
“Well, I guess…. Dunno.”
“You’ll be home in no time, just enjoy
yourself while you’re here. Okay? Alrighty. Well I bet you’re jet lagged. I’ll
let ya relax.”
“Thanks, Mark. It’s nice to see you.”
“You too, kid.” He shut the door.
As soon as I finished unpacking, I
immediately took out my notebook and wrote. Time slipped away from me, and it
wasn’t until an hour later, that I realized it. I exited my room, only to find
Adam, and Emma playing on the stairs with their toys.
“KATE!” They screamed in unison.
Yep. Definitely just blew an eardrum. Keep
walking. Ignore. Ignore. IGNORE.
“Kate. Kate. Kat. Hey, Katie! Kate! Oh,
Katherine!” Adam said.
“What, guys?” I asked.
“Wanna play?”
“Goodbye.” I said and proceeded into the kitchen.
Don’t get me wrong, they were pretty
entertaining at times, but this time, I just couldn’t. So, I went into the
kitchen, expecting to find dinner waiting for me, but it turns out, as spoiled
as they were, my cousins did not have a personal chef. Mark was sitting at the
table reading a newspaper.
"What's for dinner?" I asked
“Here’s some Corn Flakes. There’s a bowl
over there and a spoon in this draw.”
“Devine.” I replied.
“Ya know, Kate. They’ve been talking about
you all day.” I rolled my eyes at him. “Hey, cheer up, he’ll be fine.” I poured
the milk and went back upstairs.
“Goodnight, Kate!”
“Nighty night, cuz!” I heard them say, and
then went to bed.
The next morning, I was awoken by the
flavorful smell of crispy meat.
So they do have a chef.
But I was mistaken.
“Morning, punk! Here's your breakfast.
Did you wake up on the right side today?”
“I hope so.”
“Well” he started. “I called in sick
today, and the other punks are at school, so we can do whatever you want.”
“Oh, uh, I don’t care what we do.”
“Lake? Park? Mall? C’mon, there’s
gotta be something.” I didn’t say anything. We didn’t do anything either. Three
days past and I not once did I leave the house. Finally, Mark decided to
take me out.
“Where are we going, Mark?”
“I have a surprise. No kids, just us.
Sound like a plan, kiddo?”
“I guess” We pulled into what looked like
a restaurant.
“Did you and dad use to eat here as kids
or something?”
“Nope.”
“Whatever.” As we walked in, I was
expecting a high-end, overpriced food place with under-sized portions. But I
later learned that is was just an old diner.
“Did you and Gramps use to come here?” I
asked.
“Ha, do you honestly think your grandfather would take me here?! No.”
“Oh, okay.” I mumbled.
“Two please. Yep. Thank you.” He said to
the server. After she took our order, I thought about it until I was positive.
“Was it her favorite restaurant? Did you
and Ellie meet here?”
“Nope.” There was a period of silence
before I blurted out again.
“Mark, what is this place?” He took a sip
of his soda, and replied.
“To be honest… I have no clue. I pass it
every day on the way to work. I thought we should try it.” he said with a giant
smirk on his face.
“You dragged me to the middle of nowhere?
You really brought me to this stinky, old, run down diner, because you
wanted to ‘try it’? What were you thinking? I'm not a little kid anymore, you
can tell me. Why am I really here, Mark. Why?” He fiddled with his straw
and took another sip of it. Putting the glass down he looked at me.
“Why?” I said in a more serious tone.
After a brief pause, he answered.
“Why not?”
I didn’t know whether to be angry or upset
or if I should pretend I was fine.
Should I even bring up dad? I mean they
are brothers, he might get upset, if I do.
But that’s when it hit me. I was
miserable, yet somehow he was willing to take me to a random restaurant on the
side of the freeway, just cause.
“Mark.”
“Yeah?”
“I’m not ready for this.”
“None of us are, hun. You shouldn’t expect
to be prepared. Nothing in life comes with a warning. That’s what life is.”
I figured it was easier for him, because
of Ellie, but I asked anyways. Just to be sure.
“Then how come it’s so easy for you?”
“It’s not easy, Kate.”
“But-”
“Listen, Kate. Just because it is harder
on you, it does not mean things are easy for me. There’s no such thing as easy.
We all die at some point, Kate. It’s just a question of when. ” After analyzing
what he said, I replied to him.
“You still never told me why are we here.”
“I did…maybe you weren’t listening.”
“Well then why are we here?”
“Why not?”
Whatever. He is old. He has no clue what
he is talking about. Stupid old people and their sayings....
Two years later, on this dreary unwanted
day, it finally all makes sense.
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